Tuesday, June 06, 2006
WELL WELL. tmr's church camp. what should i say?? infact. i dont know what to do. haven been attending church for quite some time. totally out of contact with almost all of them. and now that i'm actually going for this camp. i wonder what will the rest say or feel when they sees me. the most sorry-ing thing is, what am i gonna say when see them, especially the people in west. it'll be DAMN awkward i swear. and what am i going to say to god? what?? that i'm sorry?? i am but i'm not really planning to go back. at lease not now. i feel that i'm going for a camp that i'm totally not involve in. if you know what i mean. i know nuts about it. aarrgg. fucked up. though jinqi say that she'll stay by my side. but i'm sure she'll have her own event to host. what ami gonna do then?? shit. this is my church yet i'm feeling like i'm a total stranger. more then anyone. more then anything. i dont have the sense of belonging anymore. should i go?? but i'll be damn outkast. nicole farted at